I am still having a hard time figuring out all that went on during this trip. We had prayed every single day about this trip for nine months. We had it on our hearts. We planned. We prayed.
Even though things turned out so different than we had imagined, I know God is sovereign. I know there are lessons in it all. It just may take awhile to sort it all out.
I had expected to get away from distractions and noise on this trip-to really connect with the Lord. Instead there was so much distraction with all of the RV problems, that never happened. Yet other things I saw, I did not expect.
Some things I did not expect to learn on this trip:
- I appreciate my home so, so, so much more than ever. Nothing is taken for granted. I am so grateful for all of the comforts of home. I have so much right here at home, right in front of my eyes. I need to cherish it.
- I appreciate my family so much. My husband’s family took us in for 3 days, and seeing his 90 year old grandmother in action was surely eye opening. She is a true Proverbs 31 woman. A beautiful thing to witness. I will not soon forget. She serves with a glad heart. She puts others first. She displays grace. What a blessing!
- Family is so important. It can be all you have at times.
- I appreciate my husband so much. This goes without saying. His patience, endurance, and strength when I was depleted is unmatched. He puts his family and our needs above his own, always.
- Childlike faith is real. Our children never once worried or were sad. Wherever we took them, they were happy. To them…skipping stones in the river was the best thing ever! Sitting by the fire was amazing! Cathcing fireflies was awesome! Traveling all day was an adventure! There was nothing that wasn’t exciting to them. What a blessing. Even when my son was sick, he kept saying, “I’m OK Mommy.” So thankful for childlike faith.
I also learned some things that need to be worked on:
- My joy must not be dependent on circumstance. Needless to say the circumstances when my son was sick were scary. Being so far away and feeling helpless was scary. Yet, I could not see the outcome and my faith was tested. I struggled. I let fear take over.
- God will allow things to happen that are not favorable because in the end He is using it. He will use it for good, even when it is hard.
- His ways are not my ways. They never will be unless I completely surrender it all to Him. Easier said than done, sometimes.
Working on it…
For now, I need to regain focus. After our final trip down to Florida this week, I will be taking some serious downtime. Some prayer. Some focus. I want my life to be different. This trip has changed me. Inside.
When all my comfort was stripped from me, I saw what matters most…and that pushes me even further to simply live, for HIM.
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