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Don’t Lose Your Life to Worry

I’m going to be 40 years old this summer, and today it dawned on me…I am probably only about 30 years old…Not by some miracle anti-aging remedy…but just being real here…I have lost so much time to worry…And believe me, those are ten years I wish I had lived.

I used to be an intense worrier, and while I have improved, it can still grip me like no other. Fear often strikes during the night, or a trigger if someone is not feeling well, or maybe an unforeseen bill in the mail, or a seemingly innocent word from my husband about work being slow that week. Sometimes the culprit is even unknown….I just start to spiral down with my thoughts, into a pit of worry.

Lately though, I have had a good grip on those thoughts, quickly turing them away and giving them to Jesus. Sometimes, I literally have to repeat in my mind, “JESUS.JESUS.JESUS,” over and over again just to drown out the other thoughts. He has given me the peace that surpasses all understanding, though because for so long my only understanding was to think ahead and worry about “what if.”

I guess in some ways, I needed my worry though…because without it I wouldn’t have realized that even when the worst seems to happen, it is always for our good. I needed to learn that worrying didn’t change anything. We always learned and grew closer to God in the hard times. He never left us. How many times I stressed about my husband’s work and finances, and then he DID lose his job- THREE times! Yet, here we are today, with a thriving family business, living our dream- because of the last job loss.  My worry didn’t stop it from happening, and my worry didn’t change things. Yet, the outcome was for our good.

So much of the things I worried about never even came to fruition, and that is where the time in my life was lost. I would sit with my thoughts, letting them consume me, even unable to play with my kids or enjoy the family. Fear had gripped me. Even when I was in college, before kids, I can remember worrying about the future…what if I got sick, or didn’t ever get married, or have children. What if I died before living my dreams? Not one of those things came true, and I worried for so many days, nights, and weeks.

Yet, had they come true…would the worrying had stopped it? NO. God would have had me exactly where He wanted me. So there is nothing to worry about because He controls the future and He knows it already and He has planned it all for good.

There is nothing to worry about because I do know that my life and those I love WILL end someday, and I know WHERE I am going...and there is no fear. Holding onto things here is futile, because my will to hold onto them, is not what keeps them here.

“Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?
Matthew 6:27

It has taken me so long to make even baby steps in this area, and many times it was one step forward and two steps back. Yet since we moved into our home and things have been going so well, I even started to worry…when will it end? When will the rug be pulled out from us? When will we sink into the valley from this mountaintop? And you know what…I am missing out on the beauty of the moment HERE when I do that- I have SO much to enjoy right now, that is preposterous to sit here and worry when it will end. Otherwise, I am missing out on the beautiful gift of each moment.

“Yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. 
What is your life? 
For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes. 
Instead you ought to say, 
“If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that.”
James 4:14-15

All I know is today God has given me a mission. Right Here. Right now. Because if I were to meet Him face to face tonight, would I want my last moments to have been spent worrying about a nonexistent future? The last moments be spent in lack of faith? The beauty is, HE has every day numbered already and our job is to walk in faith waiting for it all to unfold, without trying to control the wrinkles in the unfolding. We are just to pursue each day in faith.

So, here I sit knowing that even my wasted time of worrying was not fully wasted because it did teach me, but oh, that I had LOVED those days instead of spending them in needless worry. So, all I can do now is muster up every ounce of faith, and know that this moment has already been planned by Him, even my typing of these words has been planned by Him…and walk each step of the day in His will trusting Him with all. I will live each moment knowing that whatever the future holds, hard times or bliss…He has made every step for a purpose.

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The Goal Of Education…

Education at home looks very different than education in aclassroom setting.  Sometimes the line gets blurred as to where school begins and ends…personally it is a line I prefer to see blurred!
This wasn’t always so. When I first started home schooling, I thought I needed to set up a classroom, fill up lots of worksheets, and have a strict schedule.
As time went on, I realized the very life I am preparing my children for, is the life we are living now. We shouldn’t be learning for a “someday” mindset…but for each and every moment that we are living.
A true education is occurring every moment of the day- the meshing of the knowledge with the heart.

We learn by doing. Life is learning.

But most of all, we learn about God first.
The goal in mind to me is an eternal one…I have heard the phrase before, 
“Is the goal Heaven or Harvard?” 
May it be Heaven!
And if God wants my child to be academically successful, He will prepare them for Harvard.
But the eyes must be fixed on Him and on Heaven.
In the end of this road called education, (which will not end really ever…because after all when we say “graduate” does that mean learning stops?)  if my children know the Lord first and foremost, I have done my job.
If I have nurtured them, made them feel loved each and every moment… I have done my job
If I have been there to help them struggle, to help them rejoice, and challenge them…I have done my job
If I have helped them realize their potential IN CHRIST…I have done my job
I have to answer to the Lord one day about how I raised my children, and to look at the Lord face to face- will I say, 
“they made it in this world?”

Or will I say,
” they know you.”
May it be the latter.

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