It hit me head on. I was thinking about our new school year and it finally hit me. I knew it all along. We’ve talked about it at length, but yesterday it finally, truly hit me.
This is it.
We are starting our 13th homeschool year and this is the last one for my daughter.
No more first days.
No more planning the curriculum.
No more thinking, …”well if this doesn’t work, we can always change it next year…”
There is no next year. This is it.
We have such a story to tell. Our journey has been life-changing and very little has had to do with school. And I wouldn’t trade it for the world. It has been full of ups and downs. But I can’t believe this chapter is closing.
When it hit me, I felt it so deep in my soul. What has become so familiar these past years and such a part of us, is truly going to end. It makes me not want to start the school year…knowing this is the last time we will start.
No more agonizing over the choices…is this the right curriculum, what period of history should we study, what method should we use… No more making a schedule (that was always hard to stick to!), no more back to school supplies…this is it.
And that is what God intended. I think of all the changes in our lives in the past 13 years and can only imagine what the next 13 will bring.
Nothing stays the same. It isn’t supposed to.
I know this next year will be an especially emotional one at times, but also an exciting one. All of a sudden, the details that seemed so big each year…what “system to use,” “what planner to buy…” are fading into the background and being replaced by real-deal, real-life decisions...what college to apply to…what goals to set…what path to take.
Perspective. It’s good to keep looking forward and to learn from the past.
This Friday on the podcast I will be discussing 13 years of homeschooling. What we have learned, the methods we have used, and how things have changed over the years. I’d love for you to join me then…(LISTEN HERE)
In the meantime, I am going to be forcing my toe over that threshold and taking the step into senior year.
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